About 2 weeks ago, it really was quite a bad weekend; followed by a very bad week. Physically and mentally wise, I think I was OK. It was just spiritually wise. I remember going to church on a half tank… and coming out of it completely drain.
In fact, I was feeling so empty, nothing could fill the void. I was empty for a few days and even till now, am still rehabilitating. Service has become a burden and not a delight for me.
The strength to go on isn’t there anymore. There’s a level I need to raise to but I need to sort out some personal things before that. It’s like I’m walking out the front door while leaving the back door open. I’m taking a step back because I know, I’ll crash and burn again and again if I try to go on…
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